Month: March 2016

Help me shine. . .

Rising like the bird,
Soaring high solitarily,
Gliding above the world,
You look down upon me warily.

Touch me with the beauty of yours,
Caress me with the soft soothing touch,
Heal me and the wounds my soul endures,
With your talons, break away that painful clutch.

Like a shining sun, engulf the darkness,
Like a cloud, drench the parched soul of mine,
Like the whirling wind, blow away all this mess,
Pick me, comfort me, tell me again, that I can shine!

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S.F.R.

🎉Join in my joys! 🎉

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Geeez!! 😱😱😱😱

I don’t really believe this!

Since I started being a regular one blogging here, that’s from August 2015, I always feel glad when I have a new follower. 😄
And today, I crossed a milestone.
A double century!!
Wooaahh!
200 people who follow me. 😍😘
I am so ….. Happy. Delighted. Elated. Filled with ecstasy! All and more!! 😁:mrgreen:😂

Thank you to each one of you, for coming along with me, stopping by and reading whatever naïve things I post. Thank you for helping me learn through your posts, write ups, reviews, stories, and everything in between.

Love ya all!!
Keep smiling!! :)😇
With love and best wishes for all.

S.F.R.

Together forever – Short Story (4)

It was a day’s journey and finally they reached their destination. Grandpa was already there at the station. In these years after his son’s death, he had trailed down health wise. Ewan and Rhea were meeting him after such a long time.

His eyes were filled with tears when they fell on the children of his beloved son. They reminded him of his son, both had his brown eyes and that pointed nose of his wife. His love for them was limitless but he didn’t have the heart to go against his wife’s wishes. He had silently allowed his wife, their grandma, to break ties with them. She felt it was because of her daughter-in-law that her son never preferred to stay in the city with them, and ended up living in a small hamlet. And soon was dead.
She never wanted to forgive her son’s wife for this! She never would!

Ewan felt strange when he saw grandpa. He didn’t know how to meet and behave as though nothing had happened in these years. Ewan slowly carried their bags down the train and they waited at a spot. Unsure if they should walk towards him or stay where they were.
When mother saw him coming, she held Ewan and Rhea’s hands in hers and walked towards him.

Hello Cathy, how are you? Grandpa spoke with a soft voice.
I’m fine dad, mother replied calmly. Ewan was surprised that she still would call him Dad.

Look at you two, grandpa exclaimed with joy, how big you two have grown!!
How are you, young man? he said, patting Ewan on his back with care and pride.
I’m very well, sir! Ewan replied politely.
Call me grandpa, son! Been dying to hear someone call me that! Grandpa said with a sadness in his voice.
Grandpa, I’m Rhea, the little girl extended her right hand ahead for a handshake.
Oh my lovely Rhea! What a lovely girl you’ve become! He hugged her with so much love, that Mother’s eyes moistened.

Mother and Grandpa had a silent bonding. Like a father and daughter’s. She was very uncomfortable yet she seemed to be glad to have come. She was happy seeing Grandpa meet Ewan and Rhea. Mother always wanted to see her children connected to the family. If grandma hadn’t really pushed them away, there was no way, she would have lived away from any of them. Before Ewan’s father died, the women didn’t really share a great bond, but after he died, it seemed as though grandma couldn’t stand her very existence.

When they went home, they saw that all preparations had been made for making their stay a comfortable one. The guest room was given to them. It was hard to fit up into a room, while they had always a house at their disposal. Ewan thought just a couple of days, and then we’ll return. The thought of returning brought a smile to his face.

Ewan had vague memories of his grandparents, while Rhea didn’t remember a thing. She had been too young when their world had come falling. He rememebered how grandma had shouted and screamed at his mother after his father’s death. He remembered how she had held his mother’s arm and ordered her to leave the house and go back to the little stupid village she had come from.

Ewan’s father was an engineer and on some project was assigned to the village. He met mother there and then love happened. He was too much in love to bother about their differences and didn’t hear a word when grandma tried to make him budge from his decision. So, inspite of the problems he married mother. Slowly things cooled down and their relationships began to thaw. But after his father’s death, the cold war had never ended.

They went to see grandma at the hospital, she was very sick. It was strange to see the most powerful woman of the family, lying on a bed, pale and helpless. Ewan was shocked to see her like that and his fears came up again. There was a lesser chance of her health improving.

In the evening, he made a call to Sam’s house and informed her that they had reached. Sam sounded gloomy, but so was he. There was no way, he could lighten up her mood. Quickly he ended up the call, promising her that he would be back soon.

Two days later, grandma breathed her last. Teary eyed and depressed by the sudden loss, Ewan rang up at Sam’s place. He spoke to her father and informed about the funeral. They passed on their condolences.

Ewan couldn’t speak to Sam, she was out, with the children at some fair/carnival. He wasn’t aware of this new carnival coming to their village. He was told that it was all quickly decided as they were passing to the next town. He knew Sam must have gone only because of the children’s insistence.

All of them got busy in the funeral proceedings. The whole day they were engrossed in the rites and arrangements. All were surprised to see Mother there, they couldn’t believe that even after being literally thrown out of the house, she had agreed to come. And as though she was waiting for them, grandma left after she had seen them. Probably she asked for forgiveness, or it could be the desire to see the children of her son. Whatever it was, mother had forgiven her. Mother was like that.

The funeral morning came and passed. Grandma was laid to rest. Grandpa was the one left with the biggest loss. He was silent though all could see how shattered he was from the inside. And he kept Ewan close by, the whole time.

Night fell. All had dispersed and the family returned to the house. It was gloomy and sad. It was not just the outside for Ewan, it was something creeping inside him too. Ever since he had spoken to Sam’s father, he was quite uneasy. A strange pain was throbbing in his heart. What was the pain? Why this fear and haunting of Sam’s face in his mind and heart? Why was he feeling that something bad had happened? Earlier he thought it was because of Grandma, but still the pain didn’t subside. Why?

He was too tired but unaware of the reasons, he turned the television of the guest room on. He took the remote and muted it. He started surfing the channels. Music.
Movie.
Advertisement.
More music.
Another movie channel.
News.
News.
News.

His fingers stopped. His blood froze in his body. The heart stopped beating. The mind went numb. His throat and eyes seemed to get dry, as though the scenes on the television had dried them up.

There was blood, bodies, men screaming, women shouting and crying, people running with blood on their hands and clothes, fire and smoke everywhere.

The camera was showing people, rather body parts lying here and there, the land as though sprayed with blood, and he could see them screaming but not hear.

All those scenes were similar. All those people similar. That land and lanes were known to him. He moved a little closer and touched the screen. He ran his fingers over the headline…

Carnival turns into carnage, Live from……….

The village name blurred in his vision, Sam’s beautiful face came up in his mindscreen and a loud scream escaped from his lips.

Terror had struck his village. His home. His love!

(Author’s note: I regret the inconvenience, just that I am unable to bring it to an end soon! Let’s see how far this one goes. Kindly bear my torture! :oops:)

S.F.R.

We die again.

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Yesterday was a holiday,
I asked mom to take me to the park.

She said, I’ve got work, some other day,
It was already getting too dark.

Dad came and I pestered him too,
And he’s such a sweetheart so I had not much to do.

We both ganged up, then mom had to agree,
They took me along, and I was in glee.

The park was filled with candies and balloons for children like me,
All on rides, playing around, smiles wherever you’d see.

Just in a moment, a loud sound was heard,
I saw nothing after that, except smoke and blood.

The darkness loomed over my eyes, I heard mom’s shrieks,
And the park had become a battlefield, destructed by freaks.

When I opened my eyes again, I was still holding the balloon given by dad,
Mom,dad and so many parents crying, all children like me far away and sad.

I called out but mom didn’t hear me at all,
In her arms I saw a bundle in shroud, covered all.

Then in an instant I knew why mom didn’t hear me and kept crying,
We’d become victims, as they keep attacking and we keep dying!!

** I always find it hard to write up something when there is an event of blasts and deaths. It’s hard to even think of what dreams and aspirations died there and were lost forever. France, Turkey, Brussels, Pakistan, Nigeria, Myanmar, Iran, Iraq, Afghanistan, etc etc etc. I guess on an average more than 1000 people die in a single day. Quite a record, no?

Yet, nothing makes me more angry than an attack on children. Innocent eyes, sparkling eyes, mischievous smiles, little questions, all quietened. They are ones which don’t even think of harming others. What kind of humans are these who don’t even see that they are killing children!
Don’t forget, killing an innocent is like killing mankind. How many times will mankind and humanity be abused and killed?

S.F.R.

Together forever – Short Story (3)

Ewan was to leave with his mother and Rhea, the next day, Saturday. They had to keep the shop closed for those days. They couldn’t afford to stay long.

Sam was sad, from the time he told her about their departure. It was a long journey. So they had planned to stay for a day or two. There was something tugging at the back of his mind. Some uneasiness about leaving Sam and going. Something in his heart was whispering him to tell her what he really felt for her. He quietened that noise.

In the morning, Sam came along with her elder brother to see them off at the railway station.
She was sad. Ewan was sad. Rhea was upset as she didn’t want to go, she didn’t really remember her grandparents. And she had this phobia of meeting new people. A xenophobia of a kind. His mother was apprehensive, but she knew she should do it, for the sake of her dead husband.

Ewan took Mother and Rhea to their seats and kept the bags in order. Sam’s brother was on a call, when Ewan stepped out to say goodbye. He walked towards Sam. She sat silently on a wooden bench. Sitting quietly, unusually still, fidgeting with the folds of her skirt, she looked as though she was filled with some fear.

He didn’t like it at all to see her like this. He wished he could stop this and stay back. He wished he could take her with them. But they weren’t married. And then it struck him. He knew he loved her, but he had never told her that. He thought of doing it now, then and there. But he foolishly decided to not do it now. Later! Probably after he returned, he thought to himself.

He stepped closer and sat beside her. She still hasn’t noticed that he was near her.
Sam!! Ewan spoke. He looked at her and saw her gazing at the train which was getting filled by passengers. When she didn’t respond, he nudged her. She looked blankly at him.

Ewan. What are you doing here? You shouldn’t have left Mom and Rhea alone, she shrieked.
Don’t worry they are inside and are just adjusting themselves, readying for the journey, Ewan replied softly. Slowly he continued, Sam, you alright?

She just nodded her head.
Hey! I’ll be back soon. Don’t worry like this. And don’t make me worry. He tried to comfort her. He slowly held her hand and she let him. She didn’t pull it or say anything. Very unusual, he felt.

Don’t you drive the poor villagers mad! He said, trying to ease out whatever was bothering Sam.
She smiled and said, I’m scared it will drive me mad, Ewan.

This was getting stranger by the time. Sam was behaving very strangely.
What’s wrong Sam? Ewan asked concerned.
She looked at him and smiled, a very sad smile it was.
When she spoke now, her lips quivered. There was a pain and fear in her tone.
Ewan, be back soon. I don’t know why, but just be back soon. I fear something very bad will happen.

You think grandma will die.

I don’t know! I hope she doesn’t. But something very ominous is around. And please be careful. Please!

I will be Sam. Don’t stress out your poor soul. And stop whining like a damsel in distress, he sneered at her, taking advantage of the situation, he added,
Don’t worry, I’ll be back to save you from any dragon.

I know you will, she said with a gentle smile spread on her beautiful face. Those hazel eyes, glittered with a sudden happiness. His words, telling her that he would protect her, seemed to give her a renewed hope and life.

Just then the train started to move and Ewan pressed her hand. Their hands slid away, palms, fingers and then the tips. It was like the slow motion movement seen in movies and songs.

He ran ahead. Sam kept looking at his body moving farther away. She seemed to observe him, trying to capture the whole thing in the memory of her mind and replay it every time she wanted to. She saw him aboard the train. She saw him take a step in. She thought that was the last. But her heart said, it wasn’t.

A few seconds later, his head came back into view and a broad smile was plastered on his handsome face. She watched him wave at her. She raised her hand and waved back. She kept waving till he was out of her view.

Suddenly, the sinister feelings, those ominous vibes she had been feeling for the last few days, were back. And she was afraid that whatever was to happen was going to change her life.

Change her life for good?
Or was it for bad?
Or was it just her insecurity of being away from Ewan? She didn’t have the answers yet.

P.S. Neither do I! But this is what she’d asked me to tell you. I’ll be back when Sam tells me more! 😄

S.F.R.

You don’t know me.

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Don’t claim that you know me,
The inner demon in me, you’re yet to see.

You don’t know what I’ve lived through,
Caged, awaiting for a chance anew.

My smiles,  my face, may deceive you,
My pains, my trauma, you’ve no clue.

Don’t see me with those prejudiced eyes,
You can’t hear the voice, the echoing cries.

You aren’t aware of what life has thrown at me,
I am prepared, and don’t worry, I’ll come out free!

S.F.R.

Together forever – Short Story (2)

Days passed slowly. Summers and springs came and went. Winters creeped and crawled, making life boring indoors. Yet, the warmth of the people who love you can make the hardest and unpleasant times pass off! But what when the earth has shaken and destroyed the very soul?

Sam and Ewan were in their last year of school. Ewan couldn’t think of studying full time in a college. He had  to take up the little confectionary/bakery his parents had started in the village.

After his father’s death, three years ago, his mother had taken up the responsibility and didn’t let Ewan do much, except help her in the festive seasons. But now he had to take it up.

Rhea was twelve years old and she usually kept unwell due to her asthma. Ewan knew he would have to become a man. The bread winner for the home. And he knew with mom and Sam with him, he’d do it.

When he discussed with Sam, she was fine with his taking up the responsibility of the bakery but she suggested that he could go for some distance or online learning programmes.

So, your brain does come in use sometimes! he had said on hearing it, while they sat on the porch steps of his house. It was a beautiful spring evening. With cool breeze trying to soothen their bubbling spirits.

Yeah! When yours isn’t working, I need to keep it in spare. I don’t waste its energy like you do. she had said with a smirk.
Mine is always working! He replied uncaring.
Yeah! Overworked so doesn’t work when needed.
No one can argue with you Sam! You’re unbeatable! He remarked.

People should accept advice not argue at every thing. She said and pushed him hard. He fell down the step and landed on the ground. Elbow scraped and mud sticking to the arm.

Sammmmm!! He screamed and sat upright.
But she was off in a jiffy. She got up, collected the overflowing cloth of her purple skirt and rushed inside to mom. Now she was in a safe zone. Nothing could touch her there. Mom was a fortress around her and Rhea. And they adored her for all the love she showered on them.

Mom was fumbling with the forks and spoons as she laid them down for dinner. Sam signalled Ewan to make him realize that some thing was bothering his mother. He slowly held her hand as she laid the plates for her children and Sam.

Mom! What happened? Ewan asked softly.

Nothing Ewan. Nothing at all. Call the girls for dinner please. She answered controlling her emotions.

Ewan pulled her slowly towards the chair and made her sit. He bent down before her, sitting with his folded legs on the floor. He saw Sam slowly creep away towards the kitchen. She would keep Rhea busy while he spoke to his mother. She knew something wasn’t right. And she needed no word to tell her what to do next. He smiled within himself. Oh how lucky he was to have Samantha in his life!

Sam and Rhea are in the kitchen. Rhea wanted to make some dessert, and Sam will be helping her. Tell me mom, what’s wrong? He questioned her again, in a comforting tone.

He knew times when he had to remain the child and when to become the man of the house. Now, his mother needed a man to help her and console her. To help her face the situation whatever she was in.

Oh Ewan! How proud I am of you! I don’t know what I would have done in your absence. I am so glad to have a son like you. She spoke with moistened eyes. Little did she know that he had learnt some of it from her and some from Sam.

Mom! Cmon now! Tell me! He cajoled her further.

She smiled and spoke in a soft manner.
Ever since your dad died, you grandma has always kept us at bay. I was broken too and so was she. But instead of joining me in bringing up both of you, she preferred to stay at her mansion and broke off all the family ties with us. I think you remember seeing them…

Yes mom, I do! Ewan replied confused.

Well, two days back she had a massive heart attack and is counting her moments on the earth. Grandpa called me to inform about her condition.

Why do they want to tell us now? Ewan asked angrily.
He remembered how his grandparents had abandoned them after his father’s death. Grandpa was an old man, and helpless before grandma. While she with her pointed nose and high handed attitude, always looked down upon them.

He had wished if they had been a little considerate and helped his mother when she was hit by the storm of life. She’d unexpectedly lost her love, her beloved husband. That gesture of theirs had made his mother grow nearly ten years older than she was.

Hardships change man in so many ways. And his mother had faced many hardships, causing her to change so much.

She wants to see you and Rhea! Mother replied softly. She isn’t well and according to grandpa, she insists on seeking you two. Her little grandchildren. And I have decided that we must go!

Why should we mom? Ewan moaned with inability to understand what his mother was thinking.

Maybe not as your grandmother but if we think as humans, a dying person’s wish shouldn’t be rejected outright Ewan. I want to fulfill my duties son. Please! She pleaded with tears falling from her eyes.

When do we need to go mom? Ewan asked, he had to make arrangements. He couldn’t cause pains to his mother. If she wanted to, he couldn’t say no.
Let’s see in a day or two! She replied.

Fine then! I’ll pick up train schedule and we will leave in a day or two. Are you happy now? Ewan asked wiping away the tears from his mother’s face.

Rising up the floor, he stood and then smiled. Now can we have dinner? My stomach could start grumbling anytime!
Mother had a smile on her face and she walked into the kitchen and called for Sam and Rhea.
Both of them had prepared some fudge while they had been speaking.

While leaving Sam home, walking along the two alleys which separated our homes, Ewan told her about the sudden plan. She was totally shocked but understood that it meant a lot for mom.

Her words while she left Ewan at the doorsteps, kept whirling in his mind, while he made the bookings, the packing, the traveling.
Her words kept ringing in his mind and ears. The pain with which she said them, made Ewan wonder why did she feel so!
Her words which were echoing within the void he felt away from her, were: Don’t leave me alone Ewan. Only you can keep me safe, always.

When Ewan asked her why she felt unsafe, she said she had no idea. It just blurted out of her mouth and asked Ewan to not worry much about her.

Why did she say that? Why was she so apprehensive?
What was she fearing?

S.F.R.