Sometimes life is such a dirty joke! It leaves a slap on your face just when you think you were having a happy and pleasant day. This is one reason that I feel, that if I am too happy or pleased, I will be hurt the very next moment. Life doesn’t even let me enjoy the happiness, the joy also. Why does it have to be so mean to me?
I feel like such a helpless being. Why, life? Why are you so mean to me? Why are you so prude that a little smile on my face makes you so mad that you shower so much pain on me? I never understand what you want of me! Tell me for once and leave me alone then!
I never wanted to be what I am. I never wanted to be a strong and patient woman. I never wanted to be different from another woman. I never wanted to be a woman of knowledge or whatever you call. I want to be a normal woman, who can throw things around when no one listens to her. A woman who throws tantrums and people bear it. A woman who is happy under someone’s shadow, a woman who doesn’t think or have this so called “potential and calibre” that people treat me like a threat.
Sorry guys, just venting out! What use is this abilities if that takes you away from people who are special for you! Today on a Despise Myself mood!
Hope to get back on again with something good and a happy note!